oh hell no you just didn't....

I am needing to take some much needed frustration out on something...and better this blog than someone's face....By the way, you may not understand the complete rant of this blog, but you'll get the picture I am pretty pissed off....

So, please don't try to contact me randomly at 10am and expect me to immediately be available to be at your beck and call to deliver a report to you by Noon of the same day. Oh, I'm sorry, I'M DOING MY JOB...at meetings, in the midst of trainings, providing media interviews and painting a pretty picture, putting up a sunny disposition! Oh, and you can't tell me you had no idea that you would need this report so soon..no heads up?! I call bullshit, I saw in the email that the info was provided the week before!

AND, don't go sending me and my counterparts an email saying we weren't following "professional protocol" and we missed a deadline because it was OUR fault. Again, I call bullshit. Oh, I'm sorry your ass isn't as organized as mine to get information out in a timely matter. Finally, don't micro-manage me. I'm not a child and I don't appreciate being spoke to like a child. What happened to trusting your people? I sure as hell bust my ass every single day putting forward 110% effort! If that is how it's going to be I will be more than happy to account for every move each day and let you know everytime I blow my nose or wipe my ass! Would that make you feel better? Or what if I wear a frickin tether so you can track my whereabouts.....

Ok...I feel better...I just get tired of feeling unappreciated and treated like absolute dog crap. May it's the fact I'm overwhelmed, but like I said ranting on here is better than in someone's face, right?

Thanks for listening blog people. I heart you and your support!

belly flop

I was doing well for one whole day and then it all went to total shit lol. I had an amazing work out, had a great day of eating totally healthy. I felt great! Then we had visitors for the weekend and I fell into a downward spiral of pizza, wine, burgers and all that yummy stuff that's totally not good for me. Arg. This always happens! I guess I just need to suck it up and keep working on it, right? So, tonight I am going to the gym...I'm longing for that good hurt of a successful workout. Pain truly is beauty I guess :) I remember the days of when my metabolism was that of a speeding bullet but alas...the truth has come forward. We are aging and my mom was right?! It did catch up with me!

The inspiration to blog...

As a mom and a wife, and member of the work world I sometimes feel as if I am slowly losing my identity and in an effort to find myself again I've created this blog. I must give the credit to where it is due though. My long time friend Liz has this great personal blog with a lot of insight, humor and the mads and glads of life thus the inspiration for myself to create somewhere I can be completely me, uncensored from the world of diaper changes and politeness and professionalism. So, Liz, I raise my margarita glass to you and thank you for the inspiration to find myself once again. Cheers to me being myself and cheers to you being amazing as always!

What's happened to me? I look in the mirror and think to myself, "What the hell?!" Yesterday was my 3 year wedding anniversary and during a trip down memory lane and my wedding album I see a beautiful, confident & fearless woman. Fast forward from those 3 years I see a woman who obviously looks older, tired and has a lot more skin and weight sagging from her body. Did I mention the stretch marks? Oh, and my perky boobs, where did they go?!
Let me tell you, hot stuff!

Everyone says oh, you'll bounce back and here I am one year after having my precious baby boy still bearing the scars and chub from pregnancy. No time for the gym and always on the go I have decided enough is enough. It's time to buckle down. I need to learn to use the word no and I need to take some time for me. So for all of you wonderful people in my life please do not be offended if I say no to you and if I disappear from time to time; it's just me trying to hide and reduce the amount of numbers I see on the scale.

And this isn't about me worrying about what other people think of me; I couldn't really give a flying flock. As I mentioned in the first paragraph I miss me and the energetic fearless girl I used to be. I just want to gain that old confidence I used to have.

Well, stay tuned for more blogs to come. I have a lot to share and you don't have to agree and you just might gain your own inspiration or insight, but in the end I hope my stories/ideas/findings bring a smile to your face and give you a chuckle or two!